... :/

i'm still in a good mood.
...
kinda.

i had a terrible day.
enterprise day, wtf?
complete and utter crap, tbh.
gaaahhh, go and die whoever came up with that.
another thing...
you're such a player. i hate you.
...
omg, simone's writing about another guy?!
yeah. haha.
i hate you.
stop hugging me.
please.

and then there's you.
not the usual "you".

you need to get a grip.
i can't believe i ever stood up for you. :|
it was a happy relationship, you don't go and break it up?
nobody cares you're "in love" with her.
because you don't know what love is.
no teenage boy does.
well... maybe with the exception of james hardy.
and you're gonna be like "neither do you, simone, shut uuuuup."
well... actually.
i think i do.
think.
i think love is... doing anything to make that one person happy.
betraying your best friends (twice, in my case) just to be happy with them.
blowing off your family to laze about and do nothing with them.
feeling empty and alone when you're not with them.
only doing what you think's the best for them, never mind how you feel.
never being able to keep them from your mind, regardless of how hard you try.
finding yourself absent mindedly staring at them.
listening to sad songs and relating them back to that one person.
lying to yourself and everyone else that you'll be fine without them.
right?
and you're just obsessed.
you've been waiting for this for so long.
and that... that's just sick.
she was happy.
and if you really loved her you would have let her go.
not because you had no hope...
because you knew that he was good for her.
and that's all that mattered.
that she was happy.
and you don't fall out of love quickly, that much i know.
because if you get in too deep, that's it.
you're stuck.
but you won't get there for years yet.
because you're 14.
you're stupid.
and i want to stab you.

i know you read this.
i hope you read this.
and i hope you come to your senses.
let her go, dude. just let her go.

song of my day (that really isn't gonna help this situation):
mr right - a rocket to the moon
"it's true, he never made it through a day of school, the only thing he studied was you..."

♥