sixty-two.

wow,
i'm so inconsiderate.
and i've decided that from now on i'm gonna name my blogs
the number blog they are.
it's so much easier.

today, i cbf to write.
so i'm gonna give you some lyrics.
for almost the rest of this blog...
i'm lazy, ok?

"but whether i'm the rose of sheer perfection,
a freckle on the nose of life's complexion,
the cinderella or the shine apple of its eye,
i gotta fly once, i gotta try once,
only can die once, right, sir?
ooh, life is juicy, juicy and you see,
i gotta have my bite, sir.
get ready for me love, 'cause i'm a "comer"
i simply gotta march, my heart's a drummer,
don't bring around a cloud to rain on my parade."

"how much pain has cracked your soul?
how much love would make you whole?
you're my guiding lightning strike,
i can't find the words to say,
they're overdue,
i'd travel half the world to say,
i belong to you."

now, i have work.
FML.

show's over motherfuckerrrssss. ♥

aha.

so, yeah,
this is basically just a blog to tell all of you to go and see kick-ass.
do it.
and do it now.
best.
movie.
ever.
not much has happened since yesterday, LOL.

i just want to congratulate you.
because people are getting a massive boner over your business,
and if you like her, then you like her,
simple as that.
tbh, it took courage to ask her out when you did,
and people are gonna put you down for that,
and abuse you on formspring, LOL,
but i don't even get why people hate you so much for it,
if you care so much about his life,
why not a) let him live it the way he wants too
and b) let him be happy?
i probably only know a bit of the story,
but from what i can figure out,
people are stupid.
goshh.

so yeah, simone out.
"show's over motherfuckers."

wow.

weeeeeeeeeell...
it feels like i haven't updated in ages D:

OMG, PEOPLE, 60TH BLOG POST.
when did that happen?!
i blog too much (':

aahh, you said my hair looked nice on friday.
i was spazzing out with happiness to demi,
and she goes,
you're putting this in your blog, aren't you?
and apparently the look on my face said,
"well, yeah."
as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
LOL.
i love demi :')

i have, like, nothing left to say.
FML, my life is so boring.
but i'm happy,
and that's all that matters(:

song of my recent events:
stuttering - the friday night boys
"i can never be myself, how can i when i'm stuck in hell?
stutterin', stutterin', stuttereh-ing, stutterin', stutterin', stuttereh-ing..."

♥

fml.

well,
today was the
worst day ever.
and i'm not gonna talk about it... |:

but i want to tell siobhan dooley
that i love her more!♥

well, this was a waste of time.

and maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year.

everyone's so nostalgic atm.
i don't really know what to do about that. P:
beacuse i'd so, so prefer not to talk about the past.
you see, the past is a nice place to visit,
but i don't wanna get stuck there!
so, for a change, i'll talk about the present. (:

right now, i'm confused.
i'm scared of the future.
i love siobhan dooley more than anything in the world. ♥
i make mistakes, who doesn't?
and i think they've made me realise when to just back awayyy.
i laugh at everything, and i think i'm going to hell for that :|
i may fail... but i fail excellently.
i call my best friend "boner" and end up shouting about boners to try and get her attention.
^ failing with style, my friend.
don't hate me cause you ain't me ;] xD
this is turning into an about me, LOL.
oh well, i've started now ;]
i cried at the deaf kids on glee.
it was actually so moving.
i need a life.
and as much as i hate it,
this is the present,
even though i've ruined my future by picking art,
and every other option i picked,
that's nice (:
LOL.
as alex would say i'm "quirky".
which is a nice way of saying mentally retarded.
paha, i love alex :')

IT'S LYRICS TIME.
when our time is up, when our lives are done, will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark this time? will we always say we tried?
well, will we?

good mood.
gooooooooooood mood.

love love love.

and now i'm told that this is life.

fuuuck me.
today, i realised something.
even though i'd kinda changed,
i have the same mindset.

and i think i'm gonna have to change that.

life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, right?
and i regret not talking to you when i have chances,
but i'm scared.
and i really don't wanna be.
because we get on.
well...
we should get on.
we could get on.
we will get on.
but i need...
something.
and that's something to make me stand out.
from everything, right?
there's no point following the crowd anymore,
cause any further in and i might get lost in it.
but once again...
i'm scared.
this is a world where i can be anything,
so why am i afraid to be me?
i shouldn't be.
and... i'll regret this,
but i promise myself,
i won't be.
...
i won't be.

"everything's gonna kill you sooner or later, so why not die from the things that make you happy?"
so what if my brother was talking about sleep, COD and food,
he's right, isn't he?

right, after all that,
let's start again, shall we?

hi, i'm simone.
nice to meet you.
♥

my day?

just one more day and this week will be over.
all i've done is be pissed and embarrass myself.
yes, in front of you. |:
i'm never eating bread again. |:
i'm gonna regret saying that, LOL.
i'm tired.
this week has been long.
but your smile makes my week.

you're amazing ♥

time for bed, me thinks?

listen to accidentally in love - counting crows.
i love that song.

simone says yawwwnnnn.
naaiigghttt.

today.

well, this has been the
worst day ever.

i have an entire bag of frozen peas on my shoulder,
it hurts that much.
thanks for hitting me, conor.
i hate you.
urrggghh, fml 1.

i'm hungry, and i don't even know why?
oh wait, yes i do.
i got a bread roll for lunch.
thanks miss van loo.
gaahh, fml 2.

you smiled at me in the corridor ♥
but it was barely 10 seconds.
you made my day, and you don't even know it.
fml 3.

3 strikes and i'm out.
one little note...

please stop staring at me.
yes, i have noticed.
no, you can't turn your head fast enough.
yes, it does piss me off.

and now the formspring abuse is starting.
oh for goodness sake.
kill me now, please.
:'/

♥

♥?

happy simone.
happy happy happy.
you talked to me again today.
and i was babbling like a fish.
and you knew.
and i know you realised.
and you smiled.
all you did was smile.
all i could think was
god, you have a gorgeous smile.
and i'm sure that at one point you laughed...
but that really doesn't matter to me.
and you asked if i was feeling better after yesterday.
i wasn't,
but as soon as you said "hi" my mood... lifted.
you know i exist.
and not only that,
you care.
that's right, i am officially crazy about you.
and i can now safely say,
you had me at hello.
♥

stupid.

this is crazy.
i barely even know you
and yet...
all i can think about is
you?
this isn't right.
this is being retarded.
this is actually possibly the most stupid thing i've ever done.
well... one.
this is me,
that is you.
and i have to get over myself
but this is insufferable.
and you're another guy that barely knows i exist.
and this will keep going on,
because i'm a stupid little girl.

they hello, they say hola and they say bonjour.

i think i've ruined the rest of my life.
and i'm not panicky about that somehow.
i probably should have taken music.
or geography. or history.
or full course re.
i know i've made a terrible mistake,
but i'm not really worried about that.

i really need to get a grip, LOL. ^^'

it's mothers day and my mothers gone out.
ohai, dysfunctional family.

recently, i've been... unlike myself.
and i like this "new me".
i'm different.
i don't live in hoodies and skinny jeans anymore.
i know, i know. i'm shocked too.
i love the way it's bright when i wake up in the morning, too.
IT'S GETTING WARMER! FUCK YES. i don't do cold, you see.
i've been spending about an hour of everyday just pissing myself with laughter.
and i have a but of an obsession with Hadouken! atm.
i bust out in living room raves with my older brother, which make my day.

all in all,
i miss talking to you,
but i have so many things that make this worthwhile. :]

i have rehearsals now, GAAAAHHHH. D;
i actually cbf.
oh well,
life goes on ;]

song of my... well... idk, when i last updated:
accidentally in love - counting crows
"how much longer will it take to cure this,
just to cure it cause i can't ignore it if it's love..."

♥

unexpected.

maybe this is just another one of those times
where you get caught completely off guard
and someone does something
really tiny
that makes you feel like the only person in the world that matters.

maybe this is one of those times
where you only really realise
how much something meant to you
when jealously rears it's ugly head.

maybe this is one of those times
where you spend ages
just lying to yourself.


or maybe it's not.
maybe it's one of those times where you can't help yourself
but you feel a way shouldn't.

maybe it's not.
but maybe it's something more.

♥

(:

i really really wanna be with you
like i was before
this distance between us
makes me want you more
i do mean
you are the cutest boy i've ever seen
and you've got that something
something that i want,
something that i need,
a dirty little young girls dream.
♥

gah?

it's called a dignified silence.
slag me off all you want,
whatever makes you feel better.
believe lies,
sure.
start calling me a backstabbing bitch,
why not?
i'm not gonna regret any of this.
even though you have no reason to hate me,
and everyone thought you were a slut anyway.
but that's cool.
have a nice life (Y)

you got the love.

time after time i think "oh lord what's the use?"
time after time i think it's just no good.
sooner or later in life, the things you love you loose,
but you got the love
i
need
to see me
through.

guess.

"and nobody,
in all of oz,
no wizard that there is or was,
is ever gonna bring.
me.
down."

three makes it a crowd.

that's just how i do it, isn't it.
i always manage to screw things up for myself.

i need to stop talking to you, thinking about the other you and even remember that i know the third you.

and plus, i'm so fucking lonely.
so that's so not helping.

and i can safely say this all started in french this week.

there's no point baiting out my life, because i know that i'll regret it.
then again, i regret everything i seem to do.

i'm so not in the mood to write anymore.
:'(

... :/

i'm still in a good mood.
...
kinda.

i had a terrible day.
enterprise day, wtf?
complete and utter crap, tbh.
gaaahhh, go and die whoever came up with that.
another thing...
you're such a player. i hate you.
...
omg, simone's writing about another guy?!
yeah. haha.
i hate you.
stop hugging me.
please.

and then there's you.
not the usual "you".

you need to get a grip.
i can't believe i ever stood up for you. :|
it was a happy relationship, you don't go and break it up?
nobody cares you're "in love" with her.
because you don't know what love is.
no teenage boy does.
well... maybe with the exception of james hardy.
and you're gonna be like "neither do you, simone, shut uuuuup."
well... actually.
i think i do.
think.
i think love is... doing anything to make that one person happy.
betraying your best friends (twice, in my case) just to be happy with them.
blowing off your family to laze about and do nothing with them.
feeling empty and alone when you're not with them.
only doing what you think's the best for them, never mind how you feel.
never being able to keep them from your mind, regardless of how hard you try.
finding yourself absent mindedly staring at them.
listening to sad songs and relating them back to that one person.
lying to yourself and everyone else that you'll be fine without them.
right?
and you're just obsessed.
you've been waiting for this for so long.
and that... that's just sick.
she was happy.
and if you really loved her you would have let her go.
not because you had no hope...
because you knew that he was good for her.
and that's all that mattered.
that she was happy.
and you don't fall out of love quickly, that much i know.
because if you get in too deep, that's it.
you're stuck.
but you won't get there for years yet.
because you're 14.
you're stupid.
and i want to stab you.

i know you read this.
i hope you read this.
and i hope you come to your senses.
let her go, dude. just let her go.

song of my day (that really isn't gonna help this situation):
mr right - a rocket to the moon
"it's true, he never made it through a day of school, the only thing he studied was you..."

♥

gives you hell.

oh my.
i'm in such a good mood.

shock horror!
and i know this is gonna be so short lived, but oh my goodness,

i'm so fucking happy atm!

i've been making chocolate cake in a mug.
IT'S AMAZING.
i've been listening to 'gives you hell' on repeat.
i love it.
aaahhhh. :D

i can't even explain it.
i'm just...
happy.
SCORE.
dear happiness, how i've missed you!

i think i've got it,
i'm fed up of wishing.
and tbh, why should i be bothered?
it doesn't mean much to you, obvssss.
(:
^ have a smiley face.
simone isn't feeling very scornful.
simone is happy.
simone would like to spread the happiness.
and plus, tomorrow, i'm gonna get "wasted" on energy drinks and cookies (with extra added taurine) with my best friend, siobhan.
we'll be hungover by 9am, bitches.
it's sainsburys fault,
why would they make a litre of it 98p?
it's like they want us to drink it before 12am!
and we don't even have any lessons tomorrow.
SCORE!
xD

i'm gonna go now, (:
goodbye world(:

song of my day:
gives you hell - the all american rejects
now where's your picket fence, love, and where's that shiny car?

¬¬

this is gonna be short,
and not even a proper post,
cause i'm going out in a minute.

just one quick thing...

stop copying me!

you're not being cool,
you're just really annoying me.

get your own taste in music,
get your own things to find and post to your best friends wall,
get your own little phrases to say,
get your own ideas,
get your own life.

pisstake, tbh.

fucking pisstake.



i'll update again, hopefully happier...