almost over.

2009.
what a year, eh?

a year full of 'hello's and a year full of 'goodbye's.
a rollercoaster year of ups and downs.

i remembered you, i fell in love with you. you hurt me bad.

i've smiled, i've cried, i've partied hard, i've got off my face, i've lived it up, i've broken down, i've met some pretty amazing people that have helped me through so much, i've lost people i thought i never would, i've sung, i've danced, i've met new people, i've missed, i've made decisions, i've made mistakes, i've had fun, i've had duvet days, i've pissed off people, i've laughed so hard i cried, i've posed, i've loved, i've hated.
hell, i've done almost everything.
i flew completly off the rails, and for that, i have you to thank.

today, i met a guy.
and thats all.

song of my day:
Today Is Gonna Be A Great Day - Bowling For Soup.
"so make every minute count, jump up, jump in and seize the day..."
(yes, it's the phineas and ferb theme.)

lovelovelove.

huh.

'allo.

i got asked to update yesterday. i was shocked that someone actually reads this. but they do, so here goes.

my life is the most uninteresting thing ever. there's no point informing you about my life, because it's shit.

'scuse my french.

since i last updated, i haven't learnt much. i learn't that people can just tip you over the edge, with something as simple as "i forgive you." forgive me for what, i wonder? looking back, all i'd ever done is give, give, give. all she did was take, take, take. she'd blame me for everything that went wrong, she'd moan at me, because she had what i didn't. and i took it all. sometimes enough is enough, right?
and now, back to my usual subject...

i had an alright day today. and in a matter of seconds you've managed to ruin it. thanks?

rawwrr. :'(

i don't have a song, finding one might make me cry.

muchlove.

you.

i remember those times when everything was perfect.
but perfection doesn't exist,
because perfect is boring.
perfect is cucumber sandwiches, corsets and small talk about the weather.

im not perfect. i'm proud of my imperfections.

so why do you still expect me to be perfect?

you don't have a hold on me, however much that hurts me, it's true. because i define perfect as the times when your hold on me was strong. now, you laugh at me when i'm getting on fine, and i'm back to where i started from. don't tell me to move on unless you've got a place for me to go, cause i can't find one.

"my heart will always beat for you, you'll just never be close enough to hear it."

come back, please.
forget that, what's the point in asking...

ahhhh. :(

song of my day:
stop crying your heart out - oasis
'be on your way, and stop crying your heart out...'

loveyou.

well, that hurt.

i may be a lot of things.
im a cow.
a massive bitch.
yeahh, i knowww.
its nothing new, is it?

but still, its not something you wanna hear, really. especially from someone that once upon a time, was everything to you. someone that once upon a time was your prince, the happily ever after you read about in story books. well, i did. i dreamed about this fairytale i'd be living when i was 10.

i have to stop reading. and watching you, to be honest.

i dont know if you think its funny to hurt me like you do, like you have? and dont think i havent noticed. i take a glance to your direction, i see you pull her closer. im surprised you dont remember, how you said forever. how you said i was all you ever wanted and more. but now, apparently, im the worst mistake you ever made. and for the record, im not trying to claw my way back into your life. i never left. you were the one who helped me, but now your the one depressing me all over again.

i hope you're happy now.
that would make one of us.

song of my day: little lion man - mumford and sons.
"i really fucked it up this time, didn't i, my dear?"

peace+love'xo

oh my dayyyssss.

it's 6:10 in the morning.
i've been awake for almost 24 hours.
im watching 1 girl sleep and the 3 girls opposite me move their hands in a degrading way.
it's raining.
the only thing keeping me warm is this laptop.
life is bliss.

im warm, i can hear the rain (which i love) and im talking to one of the best people ever on msn. sure, my eyes are starting to droop watching aurelia try and curtsey, and listening to all 4 of them sing "when we were young" at the top of their lungs so badly it's kinda painful.
but i don't have a care in the world.

i've stolen one of rochelles blankets, they've stopped singing and are now talking about homebase.
as you do.

i went to see new moon, had FUN with the losers i call my best friends P:

im not even joking, i just blacked out, im that tired.

xD

it is now 9:20, i did indeed fall asleep midsentence :D
and i dont care (:

song of my week: new perspective - panic! at the disco.
'stop there and let me correct it, i wanna live a life from a new perspective...'

livefast,diepretty.♥

fergie can go die.

"its time to be a big girl now, and big girls dont cry..."

err... no. no, no, no. i laughed when i heard that. lies. big girls cry. all the time. really, it depends on what you define as a big girl, right? is a big girl someone grown up, someone mature?
according to my best friends dad, im the most responsible child in his house, and i dont even live there.
i think i'd call myself mature, tbh.
and i cry all the time, over stupis things.
such as you. mainly you.
why?

because when she cries, you'll be there to hold her hand, just like you did when i needed you. you'll wipe her tears, and kiss her, because there seems to be no problem you cant fix. i remember being her, and the thing that makes me cry is knowing we will never go back to the way we were. so i'll try to move on, because thats just the way life goes...
the way the cookie crumbles.
what a sad, sad, depressing cookie.

i dont care if you see this, to be honest, i just dont care.
99.9% over you. but its that 0.1% that keeps me going.
that 0.1% that infects my head, that keeps me staring at you, that gives me that tiny, tiny shread of hope...

i know you cant help how you feel, and im sorry if you read this and its makes everything that little bit more awkward that it already is.
i just cant do this anymore...

song of my day :
if you cant live without me, why arent you dead yet? - mayday parade
"when you hear this chorus, do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?"

peace&lovee♥

:|

aha, i wish i could say today was interesting. im sure it was for some.

all i learnt was that i can actually win at badminton.
and that all i really want is someone to hug.
is that so much to ask? apparently yes, yes it is.

im gonna stop, lets not all read depressing things (:

and if we're not going to read depressing things, i may aswell stop typing, because depressing things are the most interesting things that really happen to me.
sad, or what?
actually, there is a bright side, and that bright side just happens to be pokemon.
yes, i have a life. i just choose not to use it (:

so... yeah. im simone :]

song of my day: uprising - muse
"they will not control us, we will be victorious"

PEACE+LOVE♥

i miss you.

isn't fate horrible?

people are meant to come into your life to change you for the better, right? yeah, about that.
people are horrible, horrible things. the things that make you think they're something they're not. arrghh.
but enough about that (:

im thinking of something to tell you guys, and i've now got it.
i miss you.

i miss the way you'd tell me i was beautiful.
i miss the way we'd stay up talking until midnight about nothing, then you'd wish me a happy tomorrow.
i miss the way you'd put your arms round my neck when i was on the phone.
i miss the way your fingers interlocked with mine.
i miss you texting me saying nothing but "i love you".
i miss sitting on sofas watching movies that made me cry, usually with fear.
i miss you being there to wipe up my tears.
i miss the way you loved me.
i miss... i just miss you.

*sigh*

song of my week: weightless - all time low
"admit it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year..."
peaceandlove.<3

ignorance is your new best friend.

bonjour.

i forgot about how much i love paramore. oh my god. what an INCREDIBLE band.

anywho, yeah. i have done a couple of very stupid things lately. and i mean VERY. the one smart thing is probably not paying a stupid amount of money for an iPhone update.

I DONT EVEN HAVE AN iPHONE.

and now i cant download any apps because of everything needing the new "MAC OS Update 3.0." fack off, apple. i do love my iPod Touch, though ;] my laptop has facked itself sideways recently so i had to re-sync all my crap. ¬¬
but its ok now, dont worry :]
so i was then a happy bunny.

i have a stupid amount of schoolwork to do D;
so unfortunately this is a short update :(

songs of the week: Ignorance - Paramore
My Immortal - Evanescence

PEACE+LOVE♥

i'mma shinee...

bonjourr.

im sat, mother behind me undoing my hair, what fun. i was watching michael jacksons 40 greatest, picked by JLS, but noticing JLS are vile, i put my headphones in and mum changed the channel to Come Dine With Me, one of the best tv shows ever. whoever came up with the concept of 5 people who've never met cooking for each other, then grading each other in secret deserves a medal, seriously. its how i spend my life.
that and farmville.
not proud.

i should probably start saying things that are really deep and meaningful (thats what blogs are for, right?) but i've had nowhere near enough sugar today to start thinking. well, i probably have, but still...

i've discovered a new song, nothing like the "punky emo crap" (my brother the metalheads words) i usually listen too. i wont tell you what it is, as i am ashamed.

song of my day:
All About You - McFly.
yes, mcfly.
old habits die hard.

fat kid + cake = me + you.
love ♥

OMG BLOG D;

hello (;

i remember the time when i actually wrote in this blog.
back when the economy was steady, michael jackson was still alive and the president was white.
yes, that long ago.

i still dont get what blogs are for, because im not really gonna pour out my soul on here, am i? im sure some people do...
im not one of them (:

well... yeah. my life is not incredibly interesting, so god knows whats gonna be on here, if i finally get round to updating it ever again.

but you know... yeah.
this may be the first time ever, im lost for words.
huh.

peace + love ♥