i'm simone.
i'm only simone.
there is nothing that i can be, apart from simone.
and this is my blog.
where i'm the fruit loop in a world of cheerios.
and nothing can rain on my parade
unless i let it.

Monday, 21 June 2010

sixty-nine: fuck this.


i'm sick of my parents being divorced.
it's never really got to me before.
and now it has.
fbdnkaml~lxsaxlpws.

i'm sick of being so lonely.
everyone is in a couple now,
always being the 3rd/5th/7th wheel is getting tiring.

this is shit.
just you talking to her makes me want to cry.
facebook wall posts, and now i know you're texting her.
i'm invisible.
i honestly think i'm invisible.

no one invites me anywhere.
ever.
i haven't been out anywhere without family in so long.
makes me think i'm not even fucking wanted, tbh.
daddy, i know you won't take the job in san francisco,
but if you do, i'm coming with you.
no one would miss me if i left.
i know it.
i'm always on my own, no one includes me,
people barely talk to me.
my guild play group only wanted me because i like poetry.
i can't even blag a couple of days off school because this week is too important.
i'm trying.
i really am.
nobody else is.

i'm so, so glad no one reads these...

2 comments:

Deanna said...

I read these :) I know what it feels like to be unnoticed. And to be put second by someone who has always been first to you. Its tough. It hurts. But I bet people would miss you if you were gone. Its hard to believe, but they probably would.

Stay Strong, S.
-D. xoxo

freddieee said...

AWWW Simmonee :'(